Cairo Goes Clubbing...

It was Saturday night and my girlfriend had a friend’s birthday we were invited to, plus my best friend was over for a few days from Madrid, we all got ready to go clubbing. After coming out to nearly everyone via social media; It was my first night out as Cairo, It wasn’t until I was waiting in the queue that I started to get a bit nervous when I saw two of my old college mates, who I haven’t seen in years.

I know they must have seen my status and I know these guys know me from my early performing arts days they have seen me in all sorts of costumes and I just felt anxious. At first I didn’t want them to even see me! I hide, because I didn’t know what to do really, I just felt like I just want to go out have fun and I don’t want no one to give me funny looks or anything or ask me a millions questions.  We all got in, got drinks, and then headed over to our friend’s corner. 

We danced and then later the guys I avoided in the queue, ended up talking to my friend and then they realised I was there, we all just laughed and actually to my surprise they both were really cool with me. They congratulated me and in all honestly it seemed like they were proud of me and respected the fact that it takes a lot of courage to make my decision to transition.I felt so relieved, (I have been more worried about how my guys would react to my transition and if they would take me seriously.) I am glad that they were there and that we spoke, it turned out to be a nice evening. Later we danced in the same groups and borrowed each other dance moves and just had a laugh,it was cool to have some male bonding. I don’t have loads of guys in my life,I live with my mum and my sisters the majority or my close friends are female. I felt accepted.

I feel really blessed that I have an abundance of love and support around me, this is a hard time and it makes all the difference! I got to shout out my girlfriend, because despite our little ups and downs she has been my number one supporter. Since I came out, I had been going through so many different emotions and challenges, and she has been holding my hand through it all. She helps me when I feel anxious and encourages me to step out of my comfort zone.She loves me unconditionally and #ILoveYouBaby!
I was also happy to have my best friend who flew from Spain to show her support, She reminded me that I am still me, I have the same presence, I shouldn’t hide or care what others think. I have to enjoy life, I got to go out and live.

I want all you trans guys & gals out there or in fact everybody, to know that there are people in this world that will love you for you, just because you may not have that in your life right this second, it doesn't mean that it doesn't exist. You have to go out and find it! You may need to make new friends, or distant your self from people who also aim to bring you down, but it does exist and you are worthy. Always remember that you are worthy of love and you deserve to be around people that want to see you smile. Who have your back.I have spent years getting rid or the weeds and keeping the flowers.